RED ICE CREATIONS INTERVIEW

PART 1

PART 2

VISIT JOHNs WEBSITE TPUC.ORG

OR HIS “PUBLIC DEFENDER” YOUTUBE CHANNEL.

Always impressed with Red Ice Interviews, but this one had a nice, casual vibe that makes it easy-listening. Honest and straightforward. No fluff. No hype. Obviously a seasoned activist that’s adjusted to his grassroots, regained his footing, and is coming from a place of “what am I doing”? Something I personally prefer to the current “global scale” union of Change ™.

Someone else out there that simply doesn’t get the concept of this entire slave-based system…why everyone supports it continuation, and with such defense. Why the very act of ‘living’ has a (hefty) price attached to it. Why people accept it lock, stock, and barrel? The insanity of it all.

There’s a slight dis-comfort in John’s perspective of backing out of his current work, and heading in a more local direction…getting rid of his computer, and avoiding the “net”. A slight lack of conviction in his intention, but understandable as he explains his recent run-in with his ego. Obviously a shift is needed in his life, something he has to follow through on…that part I get; the personal time to regroup. Also, the un-noticed feeding that takes place where most people are apt to hitch their wagon on some words and wisdom…and grossly miss the personal work and dedication required to create change….where the think “answers” solve problems, and….they don’t.

Anyway………..great 2 hour interview that worth listening to.

I doubt anything I have to say/write in the next little while will be pretty, or make any sense. Hopefully, it might accomplish some sorting out feelings, a slight (more) explanation of ”why I am the way I am”, and needed most of all……some release from this current freak show I packed up and stumbled into. Most of the venting I’ll keep to the forum. From what I’m picking up….there are Others in The Circle that need some venting space as well; and I per usual……I always see lots of potential in the purge/release arena of the forum…the support that comes from our sound, and seasoned tribe of ”well-intentioned” souls. Fuck….I know I kept saying that 2009 was all about “movement”, but….I didn’t expect “this”. Mostly I feel like I’ve had the shit beaten out of me, and been hit & run over a dozen times, and……………left for dead.

Anyone else that’’s been through ”the shit” lately, and needs some room be messy, honest, raw, blunt, etc. in a fairly safe & supportive space….feel free to join me.

At the moment; right this moment…..all I can think about is how fucking MANIPULATIVE everyone is. Everyone “out there”. It’s not a new realization…it’s more that I forgot the degree to which it operates! Being reclusive for so fucking long…creating that small, basic world with little stimuli….so little influence from exterior circumstance…has possible made it worse. It has. So, I have enough common sense to think that maybe it’s exactly what I needed. One finally dip into the cesspool of civilization to reconfirm that there’’s nothing about it I enjoy. I final fight….a handful of rounds in the ring, against the extremes, and irrational, insecurities of humanity. And, not to say that it doesn’t put a good fucking fight, but……………..all in all it’s WEAK! It for sure has stamina….as it feeds of the Filth, and there’’s tons of that to still go around, and seemingly endless supply atm. And…it’s got plenty of tricks up it’s sleeve…although…they’re old & tired, and for some of us…too well known. And, of course it plays dirty…hitting below the belt, always. I can’t help but view it as amusement on the part of the filth-mongers…still, the energy…the intent is truly that of a fight-for-life. It’s delivered with that much enthusiasm….dog-eat-dog. I just don’t understand “why”?

Why people feel they need to pit themselves against other people? The whole process is ridiculous to me, and that’s what I’m struggling with atm. Also with the complete lack of intelligence I feel around me! It’s absurdly blatant, and severely discomforting. Technically, I’ve only been subjected to a small fragment of it, but it’’s been more than enough to reconfirm what I’ve always known of this place…this system. It’s rotten, and foul, and unproductive to say the least. It’s the lowest level of the death-cult. The parasitic feeders at the very bottom of this earthly existence. The ADDICTS that live for tiny, constant fixes of power they suck from the people that happen to cross their path….doing so relentlessly, and with every ounce of energy they can muster. And……they LOVE me! A tasty treat, that comes around every so often….viewed as ignorant, passive, a push-over. Bcuz I “give”. I give everything the space I feel it’s due, the respect that comes along with basic “existence”….no matter how low it’s function might appear. I have hard time seeing that as a flaw, but it has to be…in regards to my own existence. And the conundrum in that. That that’s how the system operates in general. Eat or be eaten! I am not as clean, or as open as I feel I must be to survive (through) it. Still in a position of having to ”avoid” it…and that’’s a bit of a problem for me

I haven’t learned anything new in the past three months, but I have subjected myself to the worst of what makes me uncomfortable…and although I’ve come out the other end of it somewhat unscathed….my eyes are all the sharper! My intuition more honed. My feelings more sensitive and alert, albeit it raw & currently worn thin! I jumped in with sharks, and I allowed myself to be consumed, and I forced myself to remain present and open…and I’ve come out the other end of it all…..maybe not any “cleaner”, not significantly improved, but definitely wiser. Just not sure how the wisdom applies?!?

I know none of this makes much sense. It’s convoluted…vague, pointless even. But, it’s a start to something better than the position I’m in at this very moment. A step out of the circus, and back onto a sounder path. The last three months have been nothing but a nightmare!

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1. The incarnation of a deity, in human or animal form.

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2. An embodiment, as of a quality or concept; an archetype.

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3. A temporary manifestation or aspect of a continuing entity.

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\r\nAs we…if we…steer ourselves away from the conditioned obsessions of our senses…the concepts we”ve been handed about what is real, fact, fiction. Making a conscious push away from the screen of reality, and delving deeper into the fabric, the code…the vibrations and patterns of existence itself…does it create a more fertile ground for our evolution? For our escape? I can go many ways with these ideas; that either we are the avatars born of archetypal energy, or avatars hooked to the existence of a controlling “user” or “soul”, or that we are in fact the souls our self…hooked in…having forgot who we ”really” are (a la The Nines movie)! All together it’’s not figuring out what “this” is, but instead “who” we are. And, maybe more then figuring that out, is just choosing a direction, a course for one or the other. To me it seems as simple as that, albeit the process itself isn”t easy. Isn”t easy to remember. I am the Avatar…the Avatar is me. I think therefore I am, or I am…therefore I think? I am limited by the code, or the code is limited by me? Or none of that?!? None of that is chiseled out in any way, shape, or form…and it’’s all static of misapplied energy? A leak somewhere in the network, on the fringe of a larger wireless connection? Where we are all born of random thoughts, abandoned avatars, huddled in our patch-worked existence. Feeding it with all we have to keep it alive, in turn to keep us alive. Maybe it’’s stepping out of that, or the willingness to let go of EVERYTHING we know, understand, believe in, and live for. Letting go so we might be snapped back into the larger existence…back into our true selves?!? Who knows, but there’’s a hell of a lot more direction to go in than just this! And until we can mix it up a little. A LOT. I don”t see a lot of movement. Right? Unless we”re willing to really take some steps outside the box, screen, game…we”re gonna be held to it confines of it. That’’s fairly logical.\r\n\r\nIf you just signed on for this game (all of a sudden like), and you were given “you” as your avatar. Let’’s say you just won “you” in a Avatar Auction of some sort. You were cheap, basically unachieved, unskilled in any ”particular” area. A warm-body player that had been sitting on shelf. How do things play out for you & your new avatar? That would depend on the relationship you wanted to establish with it. Wouldn”t it? After all, it’’s just a game. Going back to the players “motivation” as the main drive behind the playing piece. Difference here is that we”re speaking all 3rd dimensionally. A person that’’s “flesh & blood” playing with a piece that’’s flesh & blood, is quite a different thing. We don”t really have the objective perspective to play it out without personalizing it. Even playing with the pixelated forms….there’’s transference….carrying over heavily programmed insecurities, or concerns into the game…that ultimately effect the way things play out for us.\r\n\r\nWithout the need to personalize, we roll through the game automatically. Is there any deep relationship without personalization? Is there any deep relationship without the personal concept of ”ownership” on some level? Having children is similar to picking up extra avatars…parents living vicariously through their off-spring, with the idea that they are somehow “owned”. Bosses tend to believe they own their employees, partners tend to believe they own their ‘’significant other”. Is there any relationship beyond “personalization”? Or rather…is there any attraction at all, to things we know we can”t ultimately own or control? Not going to address that here. Want to get back to the YOU on YOU scenario, bcuz ultimately…that is the ONLY relationship that exists. And, if we don”t look into that…we can”t move from it. If you jumped into a limited, inexperienced, beginner level function/avatar…would you not yearn to develop it? If you were given a baby to move into…would you not push it to learn, explore, develop, experience? Bcuz the infant is truly “beginner” level…it comes with wider perimeters. Lets say…nothing can eat it, nothing can attack it, nothing can seriously go wrong, and the higher-level avatars in the game are coded to protect it from ”damage”. One can directly see first hand the leveling effects that are immediate. A baby smells a flower = points, a baby pinches it’’s fingers in a door = points. A baby tastes candy for the first time = points. Everything that plays out…is a process of GAINING experience & skill. As the avatar grows, despite being able to move out into broader territory…the process requires more effort & energy. Smelling flower = ZILCH. Stubbing toes, or burning fingers = ZILCH. New Flavors = ZILCH. Now it’’s about building stamina, strength, developing RESISTANCE. Toughening up bcuz the higher-level avatars no longer protect. In fact they can ”effect” your situation if you give them too much credit or control.\r\n\r\nDo our avatars become boring after awhile? Is losing interest part of the workings of a larger game?? A good example for my point here is The Sims…with avatars that are coded for “basic functions”. They will, piss, bathe, watch TV, and go to bed as their associated bars fall into the red zone. They will not always go to work though, and they won”t display outward acts of affection, or move out of the basic programming unless pushed by the user/soul. Is easy to walk-away from these characters without too much ill effect. However, left for long periods of time…I don”t know. I”ve never tried that. I assume that they will creep along the very bottom of existence, until they somehow die. Is this where we”re at in humanity? Have we passed some limit of avatar/oversoul? Do we merely continue to skip in place until we”re collectively capable of seeing the bigger picture? A hidden, narrow passageway into the larger scheme of things. This is supported by the 3rd, 4th & 5th dimensional ideas…the merging & splitting apart of worlds. Some momentary rapture that might occur whilst sleeping, or blinking…or maybe has already occurred?\r\n\r\nMaybe, the way we can move from one online game server to another, without noticing any difference in the game itself. Here we are…standing in the lobby, in the foyer, in the town square…not at all realizing that this particular server, this game that operates on this server…is far different from anything we”ve ever experienced before. How do you begin to realize that this game is different, more advanced, with larger perimeters? You don”t if you never leave the square. The square…the starting point, the safety, recharge zone is always the same. It’’s only by venturing OUT do find clues that things aren”t as always. It may appear the same world. It might operate on it’’s surface the same…meaning that it is possible to go out and perform the same mundane tasks over & over without ever “noticing” different. That it’’s ONLY in doing different, that we see different. And from that perspective…all games collectively are one & the same. Not that there’’s been any great shift that rocks the world…tears folks from their frame-of-mind, tosses them into something totally foreign, but that…all/everything has always existed in the same exact moment. The basis for operations only dependent on the capacity of the avatar to experience it. What do we experience different in this eat, sleep, shit, shave life? Nothing.\r\n\r\nWe are coming across information though…from those that are traversing the larger game. Coming back, not with facts, and locations of exact points of change…but of mystical tales, of strange, random events…of very vague statements like, “I don”t know…it’’s just “different” somehow. I KNOW it is”. Maybe booty never before seen, or A + B no longer equaling (just) C. New powers, or new insights that allow them an edge. Is it something only granted to a few? Or only granted to those that move outside the walls? What is the percentage of avatars that never leave the main town? With enough bread & circus” on hand…enough strip malls, fast food, jobs, and debt…security & comfort. Cable, heat, and hospitals nearby….very few have any interest in stepping outside. And…if their friends, family, peers are advising against it…the chances are less. Where does the motivation come from…to move outside the walls? From the ones that are returning with un-believable tales??? They can”t be all that un-believable IF they are returning. If they have any interest in returning, are capable of returning (regressing), can find their way back…then they didn”t ever really go that far. The ones that are missing…carry the greatest wisdom, the greatest secrets. They don”t come back ”here”, not in anyway we currently recognize.\r\n\r\nThere’’s only one relationship that counts…and that is with us. There is only one way out, and that is through. There is only one reality, and that’’s the one we hold-tight to. There is only one set of perimeters, and that’’s the set we operate in. Without pushing all of it over the edge…or the willingness to let go & walk-away…we as humans will never know our potential. The potential that exists…greater than the sum of our parts.