Does this Stargate Candy Look Familiar?
Jan 30th
A Jelly Ninja Star? Maybe. I call it the Ever-Lasting Jelly Gobber. Was introduced to this cosmic confection last night, whilst riding the sub-worldly subway system. I was set up to sketch random people on the train, but there wasn”t any for a good while, till a group of nerdy looking boys got on, and sat directly across from me (mid-train). They were quiet and reserved, barely speaking to one another. I watched one boy that was intensely sucking on some candy, I presumed….and went it at for a good long while in daze, not moving. Then he began fishing around his mouth…till he found, and pulled (with a good deal of effort) this odd, rubbery, translucent mass from the inside of his cheek. He examined it for a moment, and then passed it off to the boy beside him, who also examined it for a moment, and then………..tucked into his mouth.\r\n\r\nI watched each boy pass the same gelatinous rubber on to his friend, and squirmed no-less then had they been sharing the same used condom. I think what weirded me out most was that the candy seemed alive. It moved, slowly but with sentience. Like some bio-engineered, luminescent jelly-fish. It undulated, and rolled it’’s edges…appearing disturbed and uncomfortable when removed the wet, warmth of it’’s host. The last boy was finishing his turn with it as we arrived at a stop. When the doors to the train opened, he held the jelly-thing in his fingers, pulled back on one point of it…like a sling-shot, and let go…sending it snapping through the air, and splating against the concrete wall opposite the doors. The thing merged into the surface of the wall, expanded some, and then a glowing radius appeared around it…I”d say about 3 feet wide. Inside the circle was an iris of increasing light, a soft blue-aqua….that the jelly-star became the pupil of, was it create some miro-black hole in the center. The glowing increased for a moment, and the all-seeing eye at the center rotated round a few times on it’’s access. As the train was pulling off, it stopped. The glow faded, and the gateway faded back to the appearance of a normal concrete wall.\r\n\r\n
\r\n\r\nI grinned in some confusion at the wall, then at the boys. Probably due most to a final “reason” for their communal candy. The boys had seen me staring, but were oblivious, until now when one of them grinned back and said, “She has a decision to make”. Another boy pulled from his pocket a package of cellophane, tore it open, and exposed another Ever-Lasting Jelly Gobber…and held it out to me. As usual…I was reluctant & super-cautious, but something about the casualness & innocence of the boys, put me at ease. They urged me to place the jelly in my mouth, and then instructed me to “think about things”. Think about anything. Ponder everything as I sucked away on the moving mass in my mouth. It lodged against the inside of my cheek and pulsed. Highly-strange. Obviously, I assumed it was collecting data, thoughts, emotions, experience…and I was careful not to fall into realms of thinking that might cause me embarrassment…had I had to pass the candy along, back to one of the boys to sample. I had a fresh piece from the pack, so I had no clue what ”used” candy was about. They told me I had 20 hours to think about things at which point the flavor would subside, and I was to toss it out somewhere…anywhere.\r\n\r\nThe jelly had a slight citrus flavour. Maybe lemon-lime to correspond to it’’s glowing-greenish tint? Some highly, advanced alien civilization taking a survey on a popular ”human” flavour. I was able to see more when the candy was in mouth. Nothing out of the ordinary (for me). Small, random things, here and there. All black people appeared blue…a deep-indigo, which I found interesting. Anyway…then I woke up. A voice in my head telling me that I had to make a picture of the sweet-sentient jelly-star…and put it online.
ramble…
Dec 9th
mysticmsyfits.com is almost three years old. i knew nothing about building a website at the time, just that i was tired of getting banned from forums, and wanted to create a place with less politics, less rules. i wanted to hang out someplace with other free-thinkers, with no agenda, no bullshit. i knew that i”d have to build it myself. anyway………..lots of trail and error along the way. i”ve lost entire databases to hackers. months, years of posts. interesting discussions & debates. i”ve been suspended from yahoo for phishing content covertly utilizing this domain. lost my yahoo email account (of six years)…with sentimental exchanges & numerous contacts…lost to the wind. basically…due to my ignorance with ‘’security”, and my lack of keep things up to date, backed up, etc. databases became corrupted, files injected, just…general filth-mongering.\r\n\r\nso that last week my hosting provider canceled my account (without any notice)! everything lost. i don”t feel like telling the entire tale again. it’’s sad, basically. i lost 5 sites. blogs, forum, shops, and a hell of a lot of artwork, and some stories i was storing online. anyway…\r\n\r\nthis is just a pathetic explanation for why there’’s no content here (besides old blog postings). cuz they”re gone. most of them were unpublished works that i”d spent the last month or so refining. put a lot of energy in (due to a period of spiritual inspiration), and no it’’s gone. i”m trying to feel my way back into the ideas, regain some motivation…but it’’s difficult at the moment. maybe the season?\r\n\r\ngonna try to at least post more frequently. at least till i get some meat back on the bones. worry about the marrow tomorrow.
\r\n\r\nfor the few & far between that visit here. i appreciate the feedback & comments. and…welcome everyone/anyone to join the forum as well…as a more personal interaction. i apologize also for the shit with having to moderate beyond what i enjoy. that membership at the forum, as well as comments here…have to be okayed by me first. really don”t like having to do that! but it seems necessary. and…if you happen to be hacker (not that you”d be reading a post, but)…please don”t fuck up my work! lots of sites out there that might deserve being fucked with, but………this isn”t one of them. like that’’s gonna work.
Alchemical Process
Jul 30th

This picture makes complete sense to me now. Not even sure if I want to bother explaining it? Very strange thing also…moving into this new state of being there’’s a definite disconcern for those in the old paradigm. I can see why much wisdom isn”t passed on by those that truly shift into full function. There’’s no point. To each their own. The words, symbolism, definitions, explanations, and reasons of the old paradigm, do not apply in the new paradigm. There is still a middle ground, where with effort one can reach to either side and mold something that bares familiarity, but that time is waning steadily. Personal view: Now is not the time to be goofing off and fucking around. I won”t stress that. Again, there’’s no point. There will come a time though, when folks are clambering at the gates for entry, and there”ll be no one around to hear them. It”ll be too late. I can”t explain that, nor do I feel like.
IN MY OTHER LIFE…I”M A CRAZY, JEWISH, TEENAGE MERMAID!
Jun 24th
Not sure how many times I”ve mentioned my underwater experiences? They first began while living at the beach…spending a lot of time in & on the ocean. That’’s when I met the Sea Witch (Queen of the Sea). In the beginning I was always escorted by glowing, white, crystalline beings…I guess some would call them Angels, but…more they”re extraterrestrial, alien looking beings. Tall, and thin, and hard to see behind the light. Out of body they”d fly me long distances, across vast bodies of water to a certain destination…where we”d then descend beneath the waves to the very bottom of the ocean floor where there were sunken cities. What ”appeared” to be sunken anyway, bcuz cities aren”t built underwater…………….right?\r\n\r\nI”d be sent down in an elevator. The light-beings didn”t go any further. In the undersea complex I was sent through workshops, lectures, and initiations…unfortunately most of these I don”t remember. I don”t think I”m allowed to at this time. One thing I can attest to…even with current events…is I”m the only adult present. I”m always surrounded by a host of children. These places seem to schools of some sort. They”re taking all the children out of body, and training them for something. I don”t know what. Something far more together then what humans are teaching their kids anyway! I know that.\r\n\r\nThat went on for several years, even after I moved away from the beach. The next phase I was allowed more behind the scenes…sorta speak…into the areas where the adults worked. The big thing in these underwater complexes is WORK. That was made very clear to me. Work is done round the clock…as they seem to be on a very strict deadline of some sort…they”re in “countdown” mode, and there’’s no time to waste. It’’s all very intense, but an incredibly smooth operation. If I wasn”t aware of being underwater…it looks no different then the space complexes I”ve been in, both in this dimension/density and others. They”re all pretty much the same. Sadly, I can”t really describe it, or say what it’’s about. Lots of “monitoring” & “calculating” is the best I can sum it up. There’’s no production of anything of that’’s any help? (This doesn”t include what I call the Black-Op, military-industrial complexes. I can always tell them, bcuz there is a lot of production & experimentation going on. Always!)\r\n\r\nWhen I say complexes…one shouldn”t get the idea that I mean something like office buildings or underground bunkers. Maybe it would be better to say “Cities”…they”re massive beyond belief!\r\n\r\nAnyway…things changed up again. For about a year now…the escorts have been SHARKS.
\r\nI had a hard time with that one! I”ve been messed up about sharks ever since my mom took me to see Jaws as a kid. Couldn”t even get me in a fresh water lake (or a pool) after that!\r\nI love sharks though…completely majestic beings. So, I started having all these water dreams. I come into my astral body flying over the most gorgeous aqua blue water…and then float down into it like a sitting duck. And…sure as shit a shark comes along. Now, in the beginning…this would be where I”d wake myself up. It took me weeks of focus to totally give in to the situation.\r\nThat was the shocker. There’’s always a shocking point in every situation…and strangely enough…it’’s always the same. When you stop fighting back or running away….everything is completely different then you thought it was! But………I had to be get myself to a point where i was WILLING to be eaten, before I found that out (yet again!).\r\n\r\n More >
Blue Gods
Apr 15th
\r\n\r\nI couldn”t find any pictures that came anywhere close to what I”ve seen. This will just have to work as a (very) rough idea.\r\n\r\nI made a place outside to take naps in the grass/sun. I”ve only been out there three times since it warmed it, and all three time I”ve visited the same place. It’’s an unbelievably beautiful place…grand beyond imagination. I can”t even begin to describe how ornate and intricate a world it is, but similar in idea to those posters Hindu posters of the gods…and I guess that’’s where I”m visiting, whatever that place is. Not everyone is blue, just the ‘’significant” folks. I don”t know ”a lot” about Hinduism, or Buddhism for that matter…as far as the characters are concerned. But, they seem like nice folks. It’’s a meld of the two…the are Tibetan looking people, husky, dark, Asian, and those that look east Indian, and then the blues…all different hues of that soft, pearly blue, and dressed in insane get up….again, like the Hindu paintings depict. Everything is lush, and in full blossom. The air is sweet; the sunshine intense. There are also giants.\r\n\r\nthe first visit I made…I was owned by giant. There were several dozen women shackled in gold to the belt of a giant, and we sat atop an intricately carved structure that resembled a pyramid chopped at the middle (with no top half)….that looked over the land. Not so far away there were other half-pyramids with other giants perched on them….surveying who knows what. I escaped and fled to the sea; a strange sea that was shallow, and above it…on it’’s surface…traffic moved to and fro between continents. It was a like a parade no one has ever seen. Each vessel a blinding, golden ship, adorned with flowers, spilling with riches…pulled by teams of a thousand white horses, or pink dolphins, or giant elephants that stood fifty feet high. There was music everywhere, and parties floating by in giant lotus blossom. It was really unbelievable…like nothing I”ve ever witnessed.\r\n\r\nToday was a much shorter visit. The sun was blinding (again), and once my eyes were able to adjust I noticed that I was in an expansive rock garden, and before me …some huge, endless temple carved of stone. Two huge doors swung open and a procession of Tibetan looking monks walked out, followed by the blue gods….6 of them I think. It was hard to see, as the sun was directly in my eyes. They walked down the steps and stood for a moment. Suddenly I felt my body grow rigid…as all my muscles tensed…and spontaneously I began going through these movements like a slow dance…holding each position in a climax of energy, before moving into the next. And, I was floating. I kept raising further off the ground with each motion, till I was hovering about 30 feet. The procession didn”t seem to notice me. The walked a small square in the center of the court, and returned inside. I descended about 15 feet, then two men came out of the temple and walked halfway down the stairs….and motioned for me to come closer. I did, still hovering, but face to face on the step they were on. The man in front of me was somewhat plain looking, weathered…and it was hard to tell what he thought. He reached out his hand to take mine, but I was trapped in this odd tantric or prayer position and couldn”t move my hands. He noticed this…and reached up to take one of my hands anyway. I mustered enough strength to tap on his with my fingers…to which he smiled, and I smiled back. Then he lit up a joint and took a long inhalation…and then passed it to my lips, where I took a long inhalation to demonstrate some sort of equality. He smiled again………..and then suddenly the sun became too intense, in a brilliant white pulse that knocked me out of the realm and back into my body.\r\n\r\nI was hoping to go inside and meet the blue gods, see what was going on inside the temple.
\r\nAh well……………next time.
Strange (different) Out-of-Sortedness…
Apr 15th
On the midst of moving shortly…hopefully within the week. I was avoiding it, but now it seems time for a energy change on many levels. I loath moving! Strange for a Gypsy…I know, but at heart I”m really a Nester! Moving stresses me out. But, the end product is always good…a new chapter, a new perspective, a new space, etc. And…it’’s not like I have a lot to drag around. No furniture to speak of…just a stool I hand-painted that I really love & want to keep with me. At some point I”ll post a picture of it…it really is the most beautiful, bestest, old stool ever.\r\n\r\nMostly it’’s all arts & crafts supplies & product that I have to load up & cart….but only across town. Not too bad. Anyway…moving is just part of it. A logical part. The rest I”m not sure about. It still fits in with that theme of being okay, and not. It’’s more divided down the middle then I can ever remember, but that’’s good since in the past it was usually all piled up on the…”Oh woe is me” side. Where despite my optimism…things always felt, somehow…doomed. Dramatics maybe?!? Now it’’s very different, where most may not notice. Part of it is twisted up in a state of constant, dull anxiety…but beneath that there is resolve. An easy, natural, simple calmness that is slowly beginning to over-ride the rest…rising like the full & fertile spring-tide.\r\n\r\nI feel the day to day stress; the frustration, the illogicalness of the sum of things, but no longer does it bubble up inside me, and erupt into melt-down mode….where I lose grip on myself. It is somehow being short-circuited. Something beyond my knowledge is regulating my energy, my emotions are being kept at a distance…too far to go and find. I”m looking to find a reason for it…something simple, like making more money, or feeling more secure…but there’’s nothing like that. I haven”t fallen in love where the world has shifted into rosy-hue. I haven”t reached any goals that would lead me to easing up on myself. It’’s all the same-old, same-old, and then again it’’s not!\r\n\r\nIt’’s been a long time since “answers” concerned me; since I needed it all to make sense…despite it never having made any! Before, maybe it was more something I had to ”accept”…with lack of elder-wisdom, and guidance. Lack of those about me…who could “see” clearly, and aid me in developing my own self-sufficiency and understanding. Now, it’’s not even a concern…this “lack of things”. It’’s so beyond that…that I wonder what “that” was? Nothing may be in place for me on a material level, but it very much feels like everything is in place on another level. Or…near about everything. It’’s all coming into alignment…and not in that new-age sense. This is huge. Infinite. And…..there’’s no arguing with it. No confusion. No comments necessary on my part. I”m riding in my tiny boat…being swept out to sea…into something far beyond, and there is no fear there. I”m drifting out of fear. I”m drifting out, away from the old paradigm of things….to the new world.
Podcast 2 (Archons, Lucid Dreaming & more ramblings)
Apr 10th
\r\n\r\nStill so very lame, but…fun…in a way. I don”t do a lot of stuff for myself that’’s fun. It’’s all very much, nose pressed against the workbench, sewing machine, or monitor. I”m able to see clearly where this is actually something healthy for me…these podcasts. I get to work on my throat chakra, and the ridiculousness of self-doubt, and inhibitions. I get the opportunity to just place myself out there…for no reason. And…the lack of feedback is great! Nothing at all “exterior” for me to deal with. For now.\r\n\r\nAnyway…mostly I wanted to share my experience & wisom with the podcasting. Not sure I”m doing that yet? For now…it’’s like a therapeutic, pre-establishing thing for myself. I”ve moved so far away from defining things….everything has become so murky, and un-confined for me. I have a difficult time saying it’’s “good”, but it is NEW…all this strangeness of having to use words, and contain stuff in points, thoughts, theories. More of an experiment for me. Not to mention lots of experiment with the software!!! Not of very good quality, these podcasts…..ah well. too bad I guess :/\r\n\r\nStill not sure any of it is worth listening to…………yet.
The 2012 Enigma by David Wilcock
Mar 28th
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PODCAST 1 (Disorganized Introduction)
Feb 17th
Not much to tell about this experience…just that two snakes appeared out of nowhere. I thought they were going to attack me, and I knew that if I held on to that idea/fear it would inevitably happen. So…I let go of it, and they wound themselves around me in very geometric patterns (mirroring one another as they moved). Eventually the came to rest…each of them placing their large heads on my shoulders…their bodies wrapping under my arms, crossing my back, and wrapped round my hips….like the backpack might sit. They stayed there through my entire dream…as I worked to recuse people from an underground complex (prison camp). The general population had been told that a nuclear attack was taking place…and everyone was rounded up and taken underground. The handful that I managed to help break-free…when we worked our way back to the cities…there were still people living there, and nothing nuclear had happened at all. They had dropped some large bombs, but it wasn”t of insane magnitude. The people that weren”t rounded up…were still carrying on on the surface…albeit, not normally. It was war-torn looking, and there was no industry or service left…but it was in no way contaminated.\r\n\r\nJust before I woke up…I was telling the snakes that I appreciated their presence with me. At that point they both whispered in my ears…”we are here to help destroy all the “leaders”.
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\r\n\r\nI”ve been working on doing podcasts for my arts & crafts, and thought that it might also be a solution here….giving me the opportunity to still share what’’s going on in my life, without putting too much demand on my time, which is limited lately.\r\n\r\nIt’’s a sad, little podcast that’’s very all over the place…but fitting for my state of mind these days.\r\nIt’’s not like I have a huge audience I have to impress. Just you friends…so it’’s sort of what you”d hear if were to call me up on the phone = casual & discombobulated at best. If nothing else, maybe it”ll make you laugh?!? The podcasts to follow…(if I can keep on top of getting them out) will have more of a point. Maybe. I would like to use them to log dreams, happenings, weather, etc. At least share something more relevant then an empty mind, which is pretty much what this first one contains.\r\n\r\nAnyway… :/



